Life Updates...I guess

This is going to be a pretty scrambled post......like most of mine are. Oh well. Let's get started, shall we?

So I started going to DeVry because I needed to go back to school, and that seemed like a good one. and so far it is. Well two weeks into the new school year, my keyboard breaks. How fun. Right? No. Not fun. Not right. Well luckily I had just gotten my refund, so I am able to go get a new keyboard. YAY! That's the first thing to tell you guys. 

Second thing: Back to the school money. Getting a new tattoo. A jellyfish on my thigh. Don't worry. I will show you guys. I am getting it tomorrow. Super excited/nervous/suuuuper excited. Joe is also getting a new tattoo. Blastoise. Lame men. I do love our tattoo artist, because he gives us a discount. Joe is best friends with his step son though. So yeah. There is that. Lol. 

Third thing: My mom is moving across country to Kentucky. Right now. Literally. She is driving through Utah as I type this. It's strange not living in the same area as my mom anymore. 

Another thing: I have no idea what else I am typing. I just know that this is not long enough of a blog post to even be worth it. 

Oh. We rearranged our living room. For like the 5th time since we moved in here. In October. -_- Whatever. It does feel like there is more floor space though. So that is a good thing.

It has been a while.

And I told you guys this was going to happen. I haven't really felt the urge to write about anything lately, so I just didn't. But I have been feeling that nudge to do so recently. Aaaannnnddd. That's why I am here. Writing. Again.

It's the New Year. New goals. New things to do. New things are happening.

I reconnected with my mom, and then she found out she is moving to Kentucky... in 15 days actually. :T

Joe wants to move to Texas, but I am looking at other cheap states. I am hoping for possibly next year, if not the year after. I want to move before Marshall starts school. That's for sure. And considering he turns 2 this year, that's only 3 more years. (WHAT?!)

I am doing a 2015 Reading Challenge this year. Super excited for it. Started with Alice in Zombieland by Gena Showalter. So far so good. Just waiting for the last two books to come into the library.


I really think that's it. I need to get better at this.

It's that time of month again.

The time where I have to plan and figure out what we are eating for dinner for the next 30 days. The time where I sit down and look through my Facebook at what recipes I have shared. The time where I have to add things together, and triple check lists to make sure I have the right amounts. The time where..I just want to give up half way through.

Joe always wants me to try new recipes, but there is only so many variations of the same shit. There is only so much he is willing to eat also. How am I supposed to come up with new stuff, if he isn't willing to try it? I just don't understand that part.

This month is even harder...because I have to plan around THANKSGIVING. Our first one in our own place. I've cooked bits and pieces of Thanksgiving. But not the whole thing... And Joe works on Thursdays. So I have to figure out if we are doing Thanksgiving on Thursday or Wednesday. Thursday gives me more time to cook everything. But he doesn't get home until 10:30 PM.

The worst part about all of this..is he doesn't tell me what he wants. If I ask him, he says whatever I want to do. He'll say the same shit for Thanksgiving too.

It's frustrating and makes me not want to do anything. But we can't not eat. And if I don't do this, that's exactly what will happen...

So I didn't post yesterday or the day before. Mainly because I was busy, but also because I don't like writing this stuff out and my husband asking me constantly what I am writing, even though I told him 5 times. Over the span of 20 minutes.

Anyways. Yesterday we had friends over. Monday night is this couple night we have where some friends come over and we eat dinner, sometimes dessert and play a game. We usually play Munchkins. It is the only day of the week we see other people. And we started doing it, like we suggested the idea. Thankfully they haven't backed out of it. So that's nice... I'm waiting for the day though. We shall see.

We had meatloaf and mashed potatoes for dinner yesterday. I love my husbands meatloaf. So yummy. Sunday was one of my friends birthday, so we asked her what she wanted and that's what she wanted. I also made her a cake. It was a marble cake with whipped cream frosting. The frosting was good. Tasted like cool whip, but homemade. I like to do everything homemade. It's just so much more fun. The cake was ok. I thought it was a little dense, but everyone else loved it. We had some Tequila Sunrises too. I don't really like orange juice, but other then that it was ok.

I like when we have people over. It is nice to have the house clean for someone besides myself. It's nice to socialize, the little that I do get to do. The only thing I don't like is it's 6 people in a small living room and it gets loud because no one knows how to control their volume.

(Now Marshall is waking up from his morning nap. I'm probably just gonna end this here, and do another post later. Best to separate my thoughts into different posts anyways.)

Couponing?

I used to do it, and then we got tight on money and didn't have the money for the papers. Tomorrow is Sunday and we have extra money, so I really am thinking of walking up to the store and getting a couple of papers. And by a couple I mean 3..maybe just 2. I looked at the previews and they don't seem that great, but that doesn't mean a great deal isn't going to eventually come around. Hopefully before the coupon expires.

I still have all the things for it. I have my binder and sheets. I have a nice pair of scissors. Hell I even have a big paper cutter if I really wanted to. Which I might use.

It would only be $2 so why wouldn't it be worth it to try?

I was going to call my husband, but my phone seems to be missing thanks to a certain 1 year old. I'm hoping he will bring it to me.

Something is off today..

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. I just can't seem to handle life today. The past couple days actually. My fuse is shorter then normal. I get angry at the smallest and stupidest things and I just don't know why.

Every time I go breastfeed my son I get upset because he is touching me to much. It makes no sense. I never had an issue with it before. It might be because of the fact I can't sit on the couch, lay down or do anything but stand without him shoving his face in my breasts and screaming. It doesn't matter if I had just fed him either. And by just I mean he literally just stopped eating and I put everything away.

It's frustrating when he touches me, because he has to be right against me. He has to pull my hair and eat it. Drool on me. Push against me. He invades my personal space and has been doing it all day, every day for the last 15 months. It's sad to say but I really wish sometimes I could just hang up the "Mom" apron and put on a new one. Any one. I just want to get away from him for a while.

Does that make me a bad mom? Does that make me a bad person?

I don't think so. I think everyone needs a break every once in a while. The longest I get away from him is if I walk to the store real quick when my husband is home. Or nap time. The last time I was away from him for more then 45 minutes was in February. That means it's been 7 months. 7 months with 0 time alone.

I try to tell my husband how I feel, and he just doesn't understand. He gets angry because apparently he is doing everything he can to make me happy. All I want is one day. Just one, to not have to deal with my son. To not freak out every time I get touched. One day for myself.