All The Bright Places - Review

All The Bright Places by Jennifer Niven - ☆☆☆☆


Theodore Finch is fascinated by death, and he constantly thinks of ways he might kill himself. But each time, something good, no matter how small, stops him.
 
Violet Markey lives for the future, counting the days until graduation, when she can escape her Indiana town and her aching grief in the wake of her sister’s recent death.
 
When Finch and Violet meet on the ledge of the bell tower at school, it’s unclear who saves whom. And when they pair up on a project to discover the “natural wonders” of their state, both Finch and Violet make more important discoveries: It’s only with Violet that Finch can be himself—a weird, funny, live-out-loud guy who’s not such a freak after all. And it’s only with Finch that Violet can forget to count away the days and start living them. But as Violet’s world grows, Finch’s begins to shrink.

I recently finished All The Bright Places by Jennifer Niven. Some thoughts that come to mind right now while thinking about: amazing, awe inspiring, hard to put down, a definite re-read. Now to put those thoughts into sentences. I was told multiple times how amazing the book was. How much it was going to make me cry. How much I needed to read it right that second. But I still waited...waited for the right time I think. When I did pick it up it was very difficult to put down. It still took me about a week to read it. I did miss a couple nights though. One thing I really liked was it isn't a fast read like a lot of YA books are. I wasn't able to read a chapter in less then 10 minutes, unless it was only a couple pages long. I didn't feel the need to look over to the next page as I was reading. I knew I needed to read the story as it was. No skipping ahead. No skimming. Or else I would miss something. 

Unlike how I was told I would cry...I didn't. The only time I teared up was when Violet was telling Mrs. Finch she found Finch. And that is only because being a mother, it makes it harder to hear when a child has been hurt or has died. My heart aches when I think about it. It's aching right now for her, and all mothers, that have lost their children due to any reason. 

I loved the wandering. The feeling of getting to know each other in ways that no one else knows. The ending...felt very resolved to me. Like it didn't need anymore. Nor could it have had any less. The fact she was able to complete the wanderings by herself, but not really alone, eased my brain into knowing that she is going to be ok. That everything is going to be ok. When she was able to go back to The Blue Hole at the very end... I felt that was the perfect was to end the book. 




(This is my first real book review. So I am sorry if it seems scattered and imcomplete. Thank you for reading it.)

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It has been a while.

And again, for probably the fourth time since I started this blog, I am apologizing about being gone for a long period of time. Sometimes I try to sit down and write a post... but the words get lost. And.. I just don't know what to type anymore. Instead of SOMEtimes, I should say MOST times. It's pretty sad. :T Did you know that once upon a time I wanted to be a writer? Professionally and everything. I don't know why I thought that would be a good idea! I can hardly keep up a blog, much less write a book. Or come up with ideas.

So I guess..I dunno. That I should update you about what's going on in my life? I kind of half gave up on that book challenge I was doing. I am straying away from the categories, and just reading books I want to. Like I just finished Afterworlds by Scott Westerfeld...and while I liked the book, I do think some aspects could have been better. But I would read it again and I feel like it need a sequel.

Other books I have read this year include:
Alice in Zombieland by Gena Showalter
Through the Zombie Glass by Gena Showalter
Queen of Zombie Hearts by Gena Showalter
The Impossible Knife of Memory by Laurie Halse Anderson
The 100 by Kass Morgan


Books I plan on reading soon:
All the Bright Places
Shadow & Bone
Landline
Delirium
Day 21

Life Updates...I guess

This is going to be a pretty scrambled post......like most of mine are. Oh well. Let's get started, shall we?

So I started going to DeVry because I needed to go back to school, and that seemed like a good one. and so far it is. Well two weeks into the new school year, my keyboard breaks. How fun. Right? No. Not fun. Not right. Well luckily I had just gotten my refund, so I am able to go get a new keyboard. YAY! That's the first thing to tell you guys. 

Second thing: Back to the school money. Getting a new tattoo. A jellyfish on my thigh. Don't worry. I will show you guys. I am getting it tomorrow. Super excited/nervous/suuuuper excited. Joe is also getting a new tattoo. Blastoise. Lame men. I do love our tattoo artist, because he gives us a discount. Joe is best friends with his step son though. So yeah. There is that. Lol. 

Third thing: My mom is moving across country to Kentucky. Right now. Literally. She is driving through Utah as I type this. It's strange not living in the same area as my mom anymore. 

Another thing: I have no idea what else I am typing. I just know that this is not long enough of a blog post to even be worth it. 

Oh. We rearranged our living room. For like the 5th time since we moved in here. In October. -_- Whatever. It does feel like there is more floor space though. So that is a good thing.

"Friends"

I'm pretty sure I have already written about this, but I just don't care.

I am sick and tired of trying to maintain a friendship with some of my High School friends. What is the point? Is there even reason to do so? I don't think so. If feels like they don't want to be my friend anymore. It feels like they don't care about me anymore. I have always been there for them, but whenever I need to talk to someone, they never message me back. Not until a day, or even longer, later; if they ever message me back at all. It makes me feel like that there is no point in their friendships anymore.

It really hurt my feelings when I message them, and they see it, but don't respond. Or if I message them something specific, like wanting to hang out, and then message them again later and they actually respond to my "Hey.", they will ignore me wanting to hang out with them. I am sick of giving them an invitation to come to my house whenever they want to, or need to. And them not ever wanting to do it. I am sick of them hanging out with each other, but not bothering to invite me. I am sick of the fact that having a kid makes me uninvitable to places. I am sick of always messaging them first. I am sick of not having friends in real life that actually care about me. I am sick of being the only one trying to be friends anymore. I am getting sick of them.

I would love to drop them. Love to see how that plays out. LOVE to see them do nothing. LOOOOVE to see them not even notice.

But, for one, one of them has two of my books. I need to get them back before even doing that. And 2, I am probably to big of a coward to even do it.

But it doesn't matter. This whole post doesn't matter. I will probably continue to put up with the crap friends that I have. I will continue to be depressed every time I "talk" to them.

It has been a while.

And I told you guys this was going to happen. I haven't really felt the urge to write about anything lately, so I just didn't. But I have been feeling that nudge to do so recently. Aaaannnnddd. That's why I am here. Writing. Again.

It's the New Year. New goals. New things to do. New things are happening.

I reconnected with my mom, and then she found out she is moving to Kentucky... in 15 days actually. :T

Joe wants to move to Texas, but I am looking at other cheap states. I am hoping for possibly next year, if not the year after. I want to move before Marshall starts school. That's for sure. And considering he turns 2 this year, that's only 3 more years. (WHAT?!)

I am doing a 2015 Reading Challenge this year. Super excited for it. Started with Alice in Zombieland by Gena Showalter. So far so good. Just waiting for the last two books to come into the library.


I really think that's it. I need to get better at this.

It's that time of month again.

The time where I have to plan and figure out what we are eating for dinner for the next 30 days. The time where I sit down and look through my Facebook at what recipes I have shared. The time where I have to add things together, and triple check lists to make sure I have the right amounts. The time where..I just want to give up half way through.

Joe always wants me to try new recipes, but there is only so many variations of the same shit. There is only so much he is willing to eat also. How am I supposed to come up with new stuff, if he isn't willing to try it? I just don't understand that part.

This month is even harder...because I have to plan around THANKSGIVING. Our first one in our own place. I've cooked bits and pieces of Thanksgiving. But not the whole thing... And Joe works on Thursdays. So I have to figure out if we are doing Thanksgiving on Thursday or Wednesday. Thursday gives me more time to cook everything. But he doesn't get home until 10:30 PM.

The worst part about all of this..is he doesn't tell me what he wants. If I ask him, he says whatever I want to do. He'll say the same shit for Thanksgiving too.

It's frustrating and makes me not want to do anything. But we can't not eat. And if I don't do this, that's exactly what will happen...

Mother-In-Law

She is staying with us because she has decided to leave her husband. He drinks all day long and she can't be around that or she'll relapse. He smokes all day long, and she just got over pneumonia and has COPD. He doesn't seem to care about that when she just spent 2 weeks in the hospital for it.

So she is staying here until November 8th. Then we are taking her up North to stay for a little while, and then me and Marshall get to meet that part of our new family. That is going to be so fuuun. /sarcasm.

I have a hard time being around people. New people. And then these people will be considered my family. And yeah. Nerve wracking. Terrifying. All that stuff.